(VERSE 1)
I'm still stuck between a fork in the road
A lot of homies wanna rap but they ain't fitting the mold
I'm hearing the songs they do it for the love of the gold
There go they soul but hey that's some shit that you know
They say the best is yet to come I'm like....lo and behold should be the motto from this moment and on
And I been gone...working on my mental abode
I'm back and better now I got my feelings under control
And I feel every songs on some let it be known
Like when they was cracking cards I was cracking the code
My modern mode's like anything I write is an ode
But it ain't that complex if you check the context
And I came from a place worse than projects
That's a place where only spoons were convex
The good life is like spoons to convicts
Something new so when I get it I'm a be like

(HOOK)
Is it real, is it not
Will it live, will it rot
Is it a scheme or a plot
Is it enough or a lot
(2X)

(VERSE 2)
3am still writing songs trying to get it
While my girl in the room probably thinking I be cheating
And I might be...But tonight ain't for me sneaking
Tonight is for the sleeping
The price you gotta pay ain't for the cheap so I been thinking
If the game ain't for keeps somebody cheating
And the fame ain't for me but still I need it
For this bigger than me vision
Can't really say but I feel it's deeper than Willie Lynch
And I think I'm destined to find a couple sheep missing
But I'm so conflicted with feeling I need to seek fixing
I got some demons that I'm bringing with me
I do my thing and play some music when I'm feeling shitty
I use my back and middle finger when I'm feeling guilty
I get nostalgic when I'm feeling thrifty
Shit...
I do this for a couple niggas who ain't here with me
So they can enjoy every little victory and they be like

(HOOK)

(VERSE 3)
I ain't perfect but I'm worth it ya know
I may not be consistent but I'm working ya know
That be depression I be hearing he be stunting my growth
That's a slippery slope if I listen and it's more like I be damned if I do damned if I don't
But I need that fire under me to stay on the go
Get that pressure on me what I'm suppressing taking over on me
This is day one of completely sober
What I left behind need to let me know what they been on to
I need the closure, I hate listening to disclosure
I love music...but I hate this method of exposure
But I love the fact I'm getting closer
To the dreams
I can hear Goapele as I get nearer and it seems I got a thing for her
Been doing this for a while
So I'm putting down what creativity would allow
Eventually they quit if you keep knocking them down

For real that's how we rock
I had a dream I was sitting at the top
Homie can I live...Or can I not
Is it enough, cause I'm giving a lot