1. |
So Far...(Intro)
04:14
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(VERSE 1)
I been waiting and I'm still waiting
Still failing my placement tests at registration
Still never discriminating the friendly faces
Still trying to balance my stress with meditation
Still trying to avoid cases and plea statements
Still saying all I need is a little embracing
Still use the blueprint copy for slight tracing
I hit goals but there's more for me to be chasing
Still hear the cries of the kids screaming for saving
This for them and whoever was locked in the basement
And through the dark night rose like Christian Bale
And kept rising after scratching the surface of hell
The topic of heaven depends on imagination
That's for later but for now keep rising and waving
Keep going to the moon and beyond the spaces
And if you fall keep falling with smiley faces
(BRIDGE)
The things that we see on the screen not ours
But these niggas from the hood so these dreams not far
They're not far (not far)
Where I'm from the dope boys is the rock stars
But they can't cop cars without seeing cop cars
(VERSE 2)
I been growing and still peaking
Still doubting my own talent I'm still sinking
Still hit the booth and wreck it I'm still wreaking
I saw the sun over the clouds I'm still reaching
I been afraid of the big stage I'm still speaking
I never been a believer but I hear what you preaching
Still representing the leaf village
Still training still changing from hero to villain
I been seen a common middle to every religion
Still feel like there's a place I can never revisit
Still V for vendetta still back paying
Still avenging my niggas I'm still Johnny blazing
I'm still self hazing from being victim of self hatred
Ain't got a child I'm still my grannies favorite
Still remember them nights where my ceiling was tv
Still remember sneaking out when she wanted to see me
Still hurt from Hilary when she wanted to leave me
I'm still laughing at the day we saw me on MTV
I bet she still waiting on that song about her
Still feel I can't right all of my wrongs without her
Still thinking of Tay Devito
Still feel E should've been left Premo
Still feel like JDP is the coolest alive
Been felt like Mac G owe a nigga some rhymes
I still feel like no group could be bigger than we
I still think not many rapping is better than me
I still pay a couple dues if needed to be
Still remember convo between Ricky and me
He asked me what I'm afraid of I been had it and I been knew it this ain't the time for you to still be modest you might lose it if you don't use it
I guess I was afraid I might abuse it
With my stress you see the good guy goes bad when he's pushed
Then he put that drunken fist on em well good luck
Take a look man they shook
From a prodigy wreaking havoc
Tell them old niggas what they set I been passed it
Still got a couple bucks crumbled in my pocket or wallet
And maybe twenty dollars on my plastic
Still let em know if I got it they can have it
Still never letting that keep me from writing classics
Still going till my tank empty
Still racing like Indy 500s really in me
No endorsement from a major or indie
Still acting like it don't offend me
I'm a genius
So we don't even speak the same English
And I ain't talking green I'm talking bout com sense
I'm trying get out my dreams you rapping that nonsense nigga wake up
And tell me where the hell time went
Should I shake up the world
(DEE LILLY SINGS)
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2. |
RS/P ft. Ricky Natteil
03:48
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3. |
Happy Hour
04:22
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(INTRO)
Shout out if you knew me back when I was bumming
Out on couches eating flaming hots when my shit was rumbling
4 years later got the city bugging I ain't buzzing
And I tell em like I tell my woman in due time I'm coming
(2x)
(VERSE 1)
I know you tired of that basic rap
Hood nigga rich complacent trap
On the black hand side give me dap in the white man ride waving stacks
On the red man land... stop it
Man I'm trying to have a good time why you blocking
If they wanna be all dumb and shit listening to that dumb shit who are you to stop it
I'm sorry I'm socially awkward I mean what can I say you ain't heard yet
I mean...could said name first or hey thirsty not word sweating
In due timing just keep doing what you do rhyming
Them other dudes they through shining
They hoop climbing that loop hole is like two sizes too big
(HOOK)
I hope that my approach is up to par...
But we are who we are and you shine like a star
And I'm just trying to play my part
And I know the place is dark let's go somewhere I can see you
And the way you walk and smell make me feel like I need a preview
Baby you're a star, I just wanna play...just wanna play my part
(VERSE 2)
I'm getting big, really big super saiyan big and that's spirit bomb
Ain't no task too complicated when you come real with plenty charm
She so loud that her hair changing don't dare take it as a metaphor
I do my dance like Jody Jo she like baby boy you a Donkey Kong I'm a monkey, huh?
Probably cause how I be beating my chest,
Having her body scent all on my breath
Yep...I don't miss no steps except
When she dressed a couple things get slid to the left
And pull the top from the ribs the breasts
Time is short so let's live to the death
Just don't yell out Yolo I hate it, instead understand solo is stress
And you too blessed for that
So no resting here ain't no time to kill
Just metal gear how I'm grinding
What's been done I ain't trying
So don't repel from my shining
The timing is now
I ain't for mentally tieing me down
I'm on a search for some gold and a crown
So I'll let you know when I'm nearing your town
I can't be deterred so I defer commitment what I prefer is a profound
I ain't for the noise I ain't from the village of sound
I'm from the hidden village of the bound
And the gagged and the hounds that's why I'm never really round
Wanderlust plus other stuff
(HOOK)
(VERSE 3)
Never slipping up on my pimping
Never slacking off on my macking
Now I ain't saying I got a lot of women I just paint a picture for you to fill captions
And I'm about action like Bronson
Used to be ugly and black but then I came back on some beautiful swan shit
Shout out to my beautiful conscious
And they don't like rap it's violent still I take that and make beautiful nonsense
Moment of silence can you hear it my spirit be wildin
When I get that shit and it sounds like this i close my eyelids
And waltz in the ballroom that's how know that it's timeless
And my rhymes is so vibrant
I'm a shining star I'm bright lit
I got bright wit and I fight with
No one but my left and right fist
And that's me myself and I
Even though E & Tay & JDP
& Mac-G and JG & Vic by my side
Still one in the land of the many
I be the one not giving damn bout Henny
Cause I ain't got cash for it
I just got a few tracks full stress if you can accept that a payment I pay that forward
Wait for it
The grand scheme of things start showing
If they pay for it or pray for it some drink whey just to get close in their weight for it
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4. |
Lost And Found
03:39
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(VERSE 1)
Lifestyles of the young and the reckless
Or the dumped and rejected
Some young boys sending pics of erections
To a young girl named Alexis
Directless all she needed was affection
The Black youth hashtagged in a message
It's a trend that's infectious but you be a fool not to catch it
Cause it looks good through the lens
But it's led to deaths of the blessings
And interception of dreams for the ones who made out the wreckage
Let em hang give em guns tell em bang give them niggas years in corrections
Go into their brain like inception
Tell em they won't ever be shit but a weapon
Can I live? even with a black presi
I'm still not cured of depression
(HOOK)
If you in the hood waving them choppers around
Giving white folks something to talk about
Trying to get that young girl to lie it down
And she don't know you ain't trying to tie her down
Where the kids parents at, they not around
So they dying trying to be what they not about
Keep knocking them bodies down
You a member of the group that lost and found
(VERSE 2)
The lifestyles of the poor and the dangerous
Resourceless and the anguished
Baby mothers at the gig baby fathers on the corner with some baggies and bangers
Same thing...same song different name
Same beat same aim different life
Another tear another stripe
Another going through the tunnel of the light so you could make it through the night
I don't even watch news no more
I don't really try to stay in tune no more
I just wanna get money get off grid like Pac
I don't even want a crew no more
More friends more black to buy
More black to bury more black to cry
More blacks to march with no whites to care
But black never crack less crack is there
(HOOK)
DEE LILLY SINGS
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5. |
Something 4 Fatimah
02:54
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(VERSE 1)
The time is decent, I must be honest
When I say ain't felt this way in recent
Ain't trying to be fictitious
By saying I want us to be leeches and latch, disclosure preaches
And I'm loving the way we hit the lights so we could expose our features
You're like Corona when I'm on ya I be finding my beaches
Mix that with aroma, peaches
That's why you're the sweetest
Tapioca Tropicana drinking
I'm ain't the most shallow at the same time, I ain't that deep when I'm thinking
You so poetic with singing on stage
I'm in the bleachers saying my girls a genius
And you got that eve gene got me thinking professor X or Jesus
You and me together like ebony and mocha
Let me just reiterate you taste like tapioca
Had to repeat it for the rapping sequence
Had to release it if I don't I'll be packing demons
You like a lifeline if I lose you, I'll go back to Regis
Cause I'm working hard feeling like I'm playing the Packers defense
I hate the Packers
(HOOK)
We all users gotta agree on what we giving though
We all choosing gotta be safe with what we do it for
What we do it for? (4x)
(VERSE 2)
I'm such a smoozer when it come to you and
I'm just a cruiser easy does it while the others snoozing...amusing
I ain't opposed to bruising I'm opposed to losing
So cut the Boozer hit the booze let's sing the blues while cruising
Let's fork after a night of spooning on my mommas sofa
Let's build a foundation to a fly pagoda
Maybe it's the Coca-Cola you know there's a lot of sugar in darker soda
But I'm feeling like we in a spoof and I'm the awkward ogre
With a more awesome odor, Fiona
I'm an author on an Odyssey a smarter homer I'm dope
And the odds are in my favor that the Odd-I-See is Lisa Mona
My Mona Lisa Ray of sunshine my diamond in the rough
You my rider in the struggle and the snow in the buff
I'm ya Optimus Prime and you my Shia Lebuff
Wait, I'm buff and you Fox
Or Emma Stone either way I'm letting you that you hot
So do you love me or not?
(HOOK)
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6. |
The Rabbit Hole
02:55
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(Verse 1)
Picture this being the driving force
Picture this being the mutant gene cure that mutant haters were striving for
My livelihood dining source so competitive
My core at times feels like a surviving dinosaur
Old soul wake me when we at the Final Four
My final fantasy's for my family to see the final score
I put my all into it...The very fiber of my spinal cord taps into the bottom of this microphone
I'm hype alone I don't need a tag along for the stage
I just want nice companion for the greys
Clouds and anatomy
Went from being Caterpie to Metapod
Finally got Butterfrees catching me
No financial backing got me contemplating trapping
Cause I'm pushing music back and I just hate it when that happen
Cause when I'm rapping you could see this honey that I'm sapping
I'm an envoy for young boys feeling captured
Here's a wing go fly no more convoy attacking
Or reacting to the actions of American assassins
Showing pearly whites is how I'm killing them with fashion
I just see the bigger picture I'm a part of this faction
And it's hard when you acting out a part
Trying to match it up with heart and depression
Giving art to the masses for a passion
Or just to past time doesn't matter
Play it hard no relaxing then smart never backwards
From a professional who ain't got his master's
With a father in his life that they still call bastard
They ain't honoring his stripes that's life with dagger
Get a mic do some damage since they think it's a habit
It's to balance the pain and the sadness and the rain
You might think I'm whining I'm just trying to explain
Being black and trying to chase dreams harder than it seems
Not everyone can be Jay or Drake
But every one of y'all can be me nah mean
From the rabbit hole there is one that would arise
As he climb he could feel onlookers from the sky
Used ask why he was brought into this sty
And got ty-ty from receiving no reply
Read the dictionary front to back time to time
To expand on the mind it was better for the rhyme
If there was any sign that the dream was really mine
I would see it in a dream then bring it into life
Power of the mind or of the divine
Or is it the stars how they beautifully align
Idk but what I do is I'm a product of my prime
A product of the chi
But still one of a kind
You are NOT my friend or buddy or guy
Rabbit hole....
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7. |
Dreamer (Is It Real?)
03:41
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(VERSE 1)
I'm still stuck between a fork in the road
A lot of homies wanna rap but they ain't fitting the mold
I'm hearing the songs they do it for the love of the gold
There go they soul but hey that's some shit that you know
They say the best is yet to come I'm like....lo and behold should be the motto from this moment and on
And I been gone...working on my mental abode
I'm back and better now I got my feelings under control
And I feel every songs on some let it be known
Like when they was cracking cards I was cracking the code
My modern mode's like anything I write is an ode
But it ain't that complex if you check the context
And I came from a place worse than projects
That's a place where only spoons were convex
The good life is like spoons to convicts
Something new so when I get it I'm a be like
(HOOK)
Is it real, is it not
Will it live, will it rot
Is it a scheme or a plot
Is it enough or a lot
(2X)
(VERSE 2)
3am still writing songs trying to get it
While my girl in the room probably thinking I be cheating
And I might be...But tonight ain't for me sneaking
Tonight is for the sleeping
The price you gotta pay ain't for the cheap so I been thinking
If the game ain't for keeps somebody cheating
And the fame ain't for me but still I need it
For this bigger than me vision
Can't really say but I feel it's deeper than Willie Lynch
And I think I'm destined to find a couple sheep missing
But I'm so conflicted with feeling I need to seek fixing
I got some demons that I'm bringing with me
I do my thing and play some music when I'm feeling shitty
I use my back and middle finger when I'm feeling guilty
I get nostalgic when I'm feeling thrifty
Shit...
I do this for a couple niggas who ain't here with me
So they can enjoy every little victory and they be like
(HOOK)
(VERSE 3)
I ain't perfect but I'm worth it ya know
I may not be consistent but I'm working ya know
That be depression I be hearing he be stunting my growth
That's a slippery slope if I listen and it's more like I be damned if I do damned if I don't
But I need that fire under me to stay on the go
Get that pressure on me what I'm suppressing taking over on me
This is day one of completely sober
What I left behind need to let me know what they been on to
I need the closure, I hate listening to disclosure
I love music...but I hate this method of exposure
But I love the fact I'm getting closer
To the dreams
I can hear Goapele as I get nearer and it seems I got a thing for her
Been doing this for a while
So I'm putting down what creativity would allow
Eventually they quit if you keep knocking them down
For real that's how we rock
I had a dream I was sitting at the top
Homie can I live...Or can I not
Is it enough, cause I'm giving a lot
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8. |
Really Real ft. Mac Gee
03:07
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(VERSE 1)
Rock bottom...I seen it
Like if you spent the whole day dreaming
Waking up to this reality and you would feel treated
And you too probably spend the whole day heated
Why the rain in my hood so acidic
And the boss at the gig so demeaning
Man the floor so many miles from the ceiling
Got me walking through the city steady scheming
But before the final boss get defeated
And before the final level get completed
Gotta pay a visit to a stage in the beginning for a secret weapon that cause lack of play you couldn't see it
Why my old man ain't create a whole plan back when he and his friends were running through gangland
I don't know...but thank you for creating a brand for the people
Thank you for giving me a plan I could see through
(HOOK)
It's really real out here It's really real out here, really real out here
It's really real out here, it's really real out here, it's really real...
It's really real out here, it's really real out here
And I know you tired hearing that I'm tired of being poor and even worse I'm black
My stomach hurts so I'm looking for a purse to snatch
(MAC GEE)
(HOOK)
(VERSE 3)
Is it worth it a lil spot in a hearse
For a slice of dessert
That American pie got me hurting
I just wanna quench a lil thirst
Am I cursed
I go broke just to put a lil verse on wax
For you think of it whack get this work
Like when you join church who you serve on this earth
Before they put me in the dirt let em know
(HOOK)
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9. |
The Feels (Outro)
04:39
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(VERSE 1)
No cosign just dope rhymes
And the nervousness of walking a tight rope line
But the rush is like a coke line
And the confidence is like a another body that they won't find
Well, that's the chi for ya
They keep an eye on ya
That's Kanye all day do or die for ya
But the trick in that...it's such a twister so you better get a hit before it pull a disappearing act
Somebody asked if I could battle rap
I'm from the street I feel the heat but I'm no alley cat
I'm not aggressive I'm emotional
I'm not a thug but I'm ya nigga doing just what he supposed to do
I lay my roots down...I got a lane here
I represent the kids losing to the game here
It ain't for them to play they getting gunned up everyday
Nobody telling them that life ain't giving one ups
So Yolo be the sum up to get reckless for the summer
And money over mothers because she using honey for the come up
She just agreeing to the fun propositioned
Now you telling all her friends she a runner
I steady jump from many thoughts so I apologize
I figure rapping was better than trying to harmonize
Let's split the pie I'll be fine with smaller size
Cause this is what I love that's the larger prize
(HOOK 1)
So what's the deal
We talking about what is real
Some of em rob some kill...
That's the feels my nigga we in the field
You take a pill
To get out or accept it for what it is
And when you out don't be surprised by the lens
Cause you get caught up in the feels my nigga we in the field my nigga
(VERSE 2)
This album was carefully planned and cleverly thought
Every beat was hustled for and eagerly bought
Every feature that you hear was meticulously sought for
My only wish is that I brought more
But you know how niggas do when they see writings on the chalkboard
Ooh that's kinda hard for us
I understand you trying to lead us to the land but it's better if we designate someone to do the haul for us
You know...run through the hall for us
Make the call to put the game ball in our court
He does it all so we don't feel like we fall short
And if we fail he the one to take the fall for us I fought more but
There's no such thing as humanity here
They too busy trying to hold to their sanity here
They hate Spike Lee more than their enemies here
But their enemies killed one of the families here
(HOOK 2)
Now that's Cray
I mean it sounds so insane
Louie said its mundane
They tried to put one in his brain my nigga the city prayed by nigga
We wanting change
But for it what are you willing to wage
I put my life out on the stage
We all the same my nigga use ya brain my nigga
(Dee Lilly Sings)
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