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The Rabbit Hole

by Deshawn Flaire

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(VERSE 1) I been waiting and I'm still waiting Still failing my placement tests at registration Still never discriminating the friendly faces Still trying to balance my stress with meditation Still trying to avoid cases and plea statements Still saying all I need is a little embracing Still use the blueprint copy for slight tracing I hit goals but there's more for me to be chasing Still hear the cries of the kids screaming for saving This for them and whoever was locked in the basement And through the dark night rose like Christian Bale And kept rising after scratching the surface of hell The topic of heaven depends on imagination That's for later but for now keep rising and waving Keep going to the moon and beyond the spaces And if you fall keep falling with smiley faces (BRIDGE) The things that we see on the screen not ours But these niggas from the hood so these dreams not far They're not far (not far) Where I'm from the dope boys is the rock stars But they can't cop cars without seeing cop cars (VERSE 2) I been growing and still peaking Still doubting my own talent I'm still sinking Still hit the booth and wreck it I'm still wreaking I saw the sun over the clouds I'm still reaching I been afraid of the big stage I'm still speaking I never been a believer but I hear what you preaching Still representing the leaf village Still training still changing from hero to villain I been seen a common middle to every religion Still feel like there's a place I can never revisit Still V for vendetta still back paying Still avenging my niggas I'm still Johnny blazing I'm still self hazing from being victim of self hatred Ain't got a child I'm still my grannies favorite Still remember them nights where my ceiling was tv Still remember sneaking out when she wanted to see me Still hurt from Hilary when she wanted to leave me I'm still laughing at the day we saw me on MTV I bet she still waiting on that song about her Still feel I can't right all of my wrongs without her Still thinking of Tay Devito Still feel E should've been left Premo Still feel like JDP is the coolest alive Been felt like Mac G owe a nigga some rhymes I still feel like no group could be bigger than we I still think not many rapping is better than me I still pay a couple dues if needed to be Still remember convo between Ricky and me He asked me what I'm afraid of I been had it and I been knew it this ain't the time for you to still be modest you might lose it if you don't use it I guess I was afraid I might abuse it With my stress you see the good guy goes bad when he's pushed Then he put that drunken fist on em well good luck Take a look man they shook From a prodigy wreaking havoc Tell them old niggas what they set I been passed it Still got a couple bucks crumbled in my pocket or wallet And maybe twenty dollars on my plastic Still let em know if I got it they can have it Still never letting that keep me from writing classics Still going till my tank empty Still racing like Indy 500s really in me No endorsement from a major or indie Still acting like it don't offend me I'm a genius So we don't even speak the same English And I ain't talking green I'm talking bout com sense I'm trying get out my dreams you rapping that nonsense nigga wake up And tell me where the hell time went Should I shake up the world (DEE LILLY SINGS)
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Happy Hour 04:22
(INTRO) Shout out if you knew me back when I was bumming Out on couches eating flaming hots when my shit was rumbling 4 years later got the city bugging I ain't buzzing And I tell em like I tell my woman in due time I'm coming (2x) (VERSE 1) I know you tired of that basic rap Hood nigga rich complacent trap On the black hand side give me dap in the white man ride waving stacks On the red man land... stop it Man I'm trying to have a good time why you blocking If they wanna be all dumb and shit listening to that dumb shit who are you to stop it I'm sorry I'm socially awkward I mean what can I say you ain't heard yet I mean...could said name first or hey thirsty not word sweating In due timing just keep doing what you do rhyming Them other dudes they through shining They hoop climbing that loop hole is like two sizes too big (HOOK) I hope that my approach is up to par... But we are who we are and you shine like a star And I'm just trying to play my part And I know the place is dark let's go somewhere I can see you And the way you walk and smell make me feel like I need a preview Baby you're a star, I just wanna play...just wanna play my part (VERSE 2) I'm getting big, really big super saiyan big and that's spirit bomb Ain't no task too complicated when you come real with plenty charm She so loud that her hair changing don't dare take it as a metaphor I do my dance like Jody Jo she like baby boy you a Donkey Kong I'm a monkey, huh? Probably cause how I be beating my chest, Having her body scent all on my breath Yep...I don't miss no steps except When she dressed a couple things get slid to the left And pull the top from the ribs the breasts Time is short so let's live to the death Just don't yell out Yolo I hate it, instead understand solo is stress And you too blessed for that So no resting here ain't no time to kill Just metal gear how I'm grinding What's been done I ain't trying So don't repel from my shining The timing is now I ain't for mentally tieing me down I'm on a search for some gold and a crown So I'll let you know when I'm nearing your town I can't be deterred so I defer commitment what I prefer is a profound I ain't for the noise I ain't from the village of sound I'm from the hidden village of the bound And the gagged and the hounds that's why I'm never really round Wanderlust plus other stuff (HOOK) (VERSE 3) Never slipping up on my pimping Never slacking off on my macking Now I ain't saying I got a lot of women I just paint a picture for you to fill captions And I'm about action like Bronson Used to be ugly and black but then I came back on some beautiful swan shit Shout out to my beautiful conscious And they don't like rap it's violent still I take that and make beautiful nonsense Moment of silence can you hear it my spirit be wildin When I get that shit and it sounds like this i close my eyelids And waltz in the ballroom that's how know that it's timeless And my rhymes is so vibrant I'm a shining star I'm bright lit I got bright wit and I fight with No one but my left and right fist And that's me myself and I Even though E & Tay & JDP & Mac-G and JG & Vic by my side Still one in the land of the many I be the one not giving damn bout Henny Cause I ain't got cash for it I just got a few tracks full stress if you can accept that a payment I pay that forward Wait for it The grand scheme of things start showing If they pay for it or pray for it some drink whey just to get close in their weight for it
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(VERSE 1) Lifestyles of the young and the reckless Or the dumped and rejected Some young boys sending pics of erections To a young girl named Alexis Directless all she needed was affection The Black youth hashtagged in a message It's a trend that's infectious but you be a fool not to catch it Cause it looks good through the lens But it's led to deaths of the blessings And interception of dreams for the ones who made out the wreckage Let em hang give em guns tell em bang give them niggas years in corrections Go into their brain like inception Tell em they won't ever be shit but a weapon Can I live? even with a black presi I'm still not cured of depression (HOOK) If you in the hood waving them choppers around Giving white folks something to talk about Trying to get that young girl to lie it down And she don't know you ain't trying to tie her down Where the kids parents at, they not around So they dying trying to be what they not about Keep knocking them bodies down You a member of the group that lost and found (VERSE 2) The lifestyles of the poor and the dangerous Resourceless and the anguished Baby mothers at the gig baby fathers on the corner with some baggies and bangers Same thing...same song different name Same beat same aim different life Another tear another stripe Another going through the tunnel of the light so you could make it through the night I don't even watch news no more I don't really try to stay in tune no more I just wanna get money get off grid like Pac I don't even want a crew no more More friends more black to buy More black to bury more black to cry More blacks to march with no whites to care But black never crack less crack is there (HOOK) DEE LILLY SINGS
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(VERSE 1) The time is decent, I must be honest When I say ain't felt this way in recent Ain't trying to be fictitious By saying I want us to be leeches and latch, disclosure preaches And I'm loving the way we hit the lights so we could expose our features You're like Corona when I'm on ya I be finding my beaches Mix that with aroma, peaches That's why you're the sweetest Tapioca Tropicana drinking I'm ain't the most shallow at the same time, I ain't that deep when I'm thinking You so poetic with singing on stage I'm in the bleachers saying my girls a genius And you got that eve gene got me thinking professor X or Jesus You and me together like ebony and mocha Let me just reiterate you taste like tapioca Had to repeat it for the rapping sequence Had to release it if I don't I'll be packing demons You like a lifeline if I lose you, I'll go back to Regis Cause I'm working hard feeling like I'm playing the Packers defense I hate the Packers (HOOK) We all users gotta agree on what we giving though We all choosing gotta be safe with what we do it for What we do it for? (4x) (VERSE 2) I'm such a smoozer when it come to you and I'm just a cruiser easy does it while the others snoozing...amusing I ain't opposed to bruising I'm opposed to losing So cut the Boozer hit the booze let's sing the blues while cruising Let's fork after a night of spooning on my mommas sofa Let's build a foundation to a fly pagoda Maybe it's the Coca-Cola you know there's a lot of sugar in darker soda But I'm feeling like we in a spoof and I'm the awkward ogre With a more awesome odor, Fiona I'm an author on an Odyssey a smarter homer I'm dope And the odds are in my favor that the Odd-I-See is Lisa Mona My Mona Lisa Ray of sunshine my diamond in the rough You my rider in the struggle and the snow in the buff I'm ya Optimus Prime and you my Shia Lebuff Wait, I'm buff and you Fox Or Emma Stone either way I'm letting you that you hot So do you love me or not? (HOOK)
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(Verse 1) Picture this being the driving force Picture this being the mutant gene cure that mutant haters were striving for My livelihood dining source so competitive My core at times feels like a surviving dinosaur Old soul wake me when we at the Final Four My final fantasy's for my family to see the final score I put my all into it...The very fiber of my spinal cord taps into the bottom of this microphone I'm hype alone I don't need a tag along for the stage I just want nice companion for the greys Clouds and anatomy Went from being Caterpie to Metapod Finally got Butterfrees catching me No financial backing got me contemplating trapping Cause I'm pushing music back and I just hate it when that happen Cause when I'm rapping you could see this honey that I'm sapping I'm an envoy for young boys feeling captured Here's a wing go fly no more convoy attacking Or reacting to the actions of American assassins Showing pearly whites is how I'm killing them with fashion I just see the bigger picture I'm a part of this faction And it's hard when you acting out a part Trying to match it up with heart and depression Giving art to the masses for a passion Or just to past time doesn't matter Play it hard no relaxing then smart never backwards From a professional who ain't got his master's With a father in his life that they still call bastard They ain't honoring his stripes that's life with dagger Get a mic do some damage since they think it's a habit It's to balance the pain and the sadness and the rain You might think I'm whining I'm just trying to explain Being black and trying to chase dreams harder than it seems Not everyone can be Jay or Drake But every one of y'all can be me nah mean From the rabbit hole there is one that would arise As he climb he could feel onlookers from the sky Used ask why he was brought into this sty And got ty-ty from receiving no reply Read the dictionary front to back time to time To expand on the mind it was better for the rhyme If there was any sign that the dream was really mine I would see it in a dream then bring it into life Power of the mind or of the divine Or is it the stars how they beautifully align Idk but what I do is I'm a product of my prime A product of the chi But still one of a kind You are NOT my friend or buddy or guy Rabbit hole....
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(VERSE 1) I'm still stuck between a fork in the road A lot of homies wanna rap but they ain't fitting the mold I'm hearing the songs they do it for the love of the gold There go they soul but hey that's some shit that you know They say the best is yet to come I'm like....lo and behold should be the motto from this moment and on And I been gone...working on my mental abode I'm back and better now I got my feelings under control And I feel every songs on some let it be known Like when they was cracking cards I was cracking the code My modern mode's like anything I write is an ode But it ain't that complex if you check the context And I came from a place worse than projects That's a place where only spoons were convex The good life is like spoons to convicts Something new so when I get it I'm a be like (HOOK) Is it real, is it not Will it live, will it rot Is it a scheme or a plot Is it enough or a lot (2X) (VERSE 2) 3am still writing songs trying to get it While my girl in the room probably thinking I be cheating And I might be...But tonight ain't for me sneaking Tonight is for the sleeping The price you gotta pay ain't for the cheap so I been thinking If the game ain't for keeps somebody cheating And the fame ain't for me but still I need it For this bigger than me vision Can't really say but I feel it's deeper than Willie Lynch And I think I'm destined to find a couple sheep missing But I'm so conflicted with feeling I need to seek fixing I got some demons that I'm bringing with me I do my thing and play some music when I'm feeling shitty I use my back and middle finger when I'm feeling guilty I get nostalgic when I'm feeling thrifty Shit... I do this for a couple niggas who ain't here with me So they can enjoy every little victory and they be like (HOOK) (VERSE 3) I ain't perfect but I'm worth it ya know I may not be consistent but I'm working ya know That be depression I be hearing he be stunting my growth That's a slippery slope if I listen and it's more like I be damned if I do damned if I don't But I need that fire under me to stay on the go Get that pressure on me what I'm suppressing taking over on me This is day one of completely sober What I left behind need to let me know what they been on to I need the closure, I hate listening to disclosure I love music...but I hate this method of exposure But I love the fact I'm getting closer To the dreams I can hear Goapele as I get nearer and it seems I got a thing for her Been doing this for a while So I'm putting down what creativity would allow Eventually they quit if you keep knocking them down For real that's how we rock I had a dream I was sitting at the top Homie can I live...Or can I not Is it enough, cause I'm giving a lot
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(VERSE 1) Rock bottom...I seen it Like if you spent the whole day dreaming Waking up to this reality and you would feel treated And you too probably spend the whole day heated Why the rain in my hood so acidic And the boss at the gig so demeaning Man the floor so many miles from the ceiling Got me walking through the city steady scheming But before the final boss get defeated And before the final level get completed Gotta pay a visit to a stage in the beginning for a secret weapon that cause lack of play you couldn't see it Why my old man ain't create a whole plan back when he and his friends were running through gangland I don't know...but thank you for creating a brand for the people Thank you for giving me a plan I could see through (HOOK) It's really real out here It's really real out here, really real out here It's really real out here, it's really real out here, it's really real... It's really real out here, it's really real out here And I know you tired hearing that I'm tired of being poor and even worse I'm black My stomach hurts so I'm looking for a purse to snatch (MAC GEE) (HOOK) (VERSE 3) Is it worth it a lil spot in a hearse For a slice of dessert That American pie got me hurting I just wanna quench a lil thirst Am I cursed I go broke just to put a lil verse on wax For you think of it whack get this work Like when you join church who you serve on this earth Before they put me in the dirt let em know (HOOK)
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(VERSE 1) No cosign just dope rhymes And the nervousness of walking a tight rope line But the rush is like a coke line And the confidence is like a another body that they won't find Well, that's the chi for ya They keep an eye on ya That's Kanye all day do or die for ya But the trick in that...it's such a twister so you better get a hit before it pull a disappearing act Somebody asked if I could battle rap I'm from the street I feel the heat but I'm no alley cat I'm not aggressive I'm emotional I'm not a thug but I'm ya nigga doing just what he supposed to do I lay my roots down...I got a lane here I represent the kids losing to the game here It ain't for them to play they getting gunned up everyday Nobody telling them that life ain't giving one ups So Yolo be the sum up to get reckless for the summer And money over mothers because she using honey for the come up She just agreeing to the fun propositioned Now you telling all her friends she a runner I steady jump from many thoughts so I apologize I figure rapping was better than trying to harmonize Let's split the pie I'll be fine with smaller size Cause this is what I love that's the larger prize (HOOK 1) So what's the deal We talking about what is real Some of em rob some kill... That's the feels my nigga we in the field You take a pill To get out or accept it for what it is And when you out don't be surprised by the lens Cause you get caught up in the feels my nigga we in the field my nigga (VERSE 2) This album was carefully planned and cleverly thought Every beat was hustled for and eagerly bought Every feature that you hear was meticulously sought for My only wish is that I brought more But you know how niggas do when they see writings on the chalkboard Ooh that's kinda hard for us I understand you trying to lead us to the land but it's better if we designate someone to do the haul for us You know...run through the hall for us Make the call to put the game ball in our court He does it all so we don't feel like we fall short And if we fail he the one to take the fall for us I fought more but There's no such thing as humanity here They too busy trying to hold to their sanity here They hate Spike Lee more than their enemies here But their enemies killed one of the families here (HOOK 2) Now that's Cray I mean it sounds so insane Louie said its mundane They tried to put one in his brain my nigga the city prayed by nigga We wanting change But for it what are you willing to wage I put my life out on the stage We all the same my nigga use ya brain my nigga (Dee Lilly Sings)

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The Rabbit Hole (2016)

This album was recorded over the course of 1 year in Chicago, IL. It's an embodiment of everything I've thought of, stressed over, talked about with friends and what I've been feeling since my last musical release.

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released July 26, 2016

PRODUCTION:
OSYM - Track 1,5,6,7,8,9
Dee Lilly - Track 4
RicAndThadeus - Track 2
Tone Jonez - Track 3

GUEST ARTISTS:
Ricky Natteil - RS/P
Mac Gee - Really Real

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